Wednesday, February 3, 2010

3rd fill today...Not as excited as I was because...

....I have actually gained weight since I went last time. Ok the last fill I got was on December 30th so roughly a month ago. I weighed (with clothes on) 231.5 pounds. And here is where I need to insert something bad I did yesterday food wise. I knew I had a fill today and I told myself I was going to either do liquids all day or eat extremely healthy. But for some reason my self control went out the door big time. I made muffins with my boyfriend for breakfast which weren't too bad but a few more calories than I needed to eat for breakfast. For lunch I had a semi-decent meal. I went to Panera Bread (if any of yall have this where you live) and had half a turkey sandwich and half a cup of broccoli and cheese soup. I came home and looked up the calories online and lunch ended up equaling 700 CALORIES!! And to make yesterday worse, guess what I decided for some reason to eat for dinner?!?! TACO BELL! What in the world was I thinking?? I pull up at the drive thru and decided to order a beef burrito and a potato soft taco! OMG after realizing I made this terrible decision and after I had already eaten it all, I got on the computer to look up the calories! My delicious and fabulous (sarcasm) dinner at Taco Bell ended up being 900 calories! So on the day before my 3rd fill, I consumed around 2000 calories!! When you are used to consuming only around 1000 or 1200 a day, I think this made me gain some between yesterday morning and this morning. I got up this morning, took a nice shower, put on my "weigh in" outfit. For those of yall who dont know, I wear the same exact outfit each time I weigh in so I know my clothing weight is consistent. I get up on the scale and guess what it says?! Drumroll please...........234 pounds! I know we have all had these "no lose, sometimes gain" days and weeks but I am trying my hardest to be below 220 before my cousins wedding in 5 weeks!! Is my doctor going to kill me?! Lord, Im not looking forward to it. But it will make me feel better to know that today can be a start over day to losing those pounds to get my below 220!

Anyone else make stupid "taco bell" or any other fast food decisions like I do? Sometimes the self control just goes out the window, huh? Anyways, I will update yall tonight on how it all goes! Thanks for listening to me rant...it means a lot haha. I am also going to post more pictures from last weekend when my boyfriend and I went to Atlanta :) Thanks for reading! Talk to yall later!

7 comments:

  1. We've all been there I'm sure! Don't stress about it, today is a new day! Good luck at the Dr :)

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  2. The fill will probably help. And I have been up to 2000 calories (and more) between fills myself. From what everyone else has told me, you shouldn't be able to eat that much when you are properly filled (at your sweet spot). Hopefully, you'll get there today. Good luck!

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  3. How much did you get? I know we had talked about being conservative on the fills with this doctor!

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  4. The fill will help! You are probably retaining water from all the salt in those meals. Also, don't freak out if you gain a little the first few days after your fill. I seem to go up a couple pounds but then lose more the week after my fill. Good luck!

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  5. Really goes to show that no matter how far we get away from surgery, how safe we feel, those old food cravings are there. Pick yourself up and start over...and learn from the choices you made today. That's all any of us can do! :)

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  6. Oh my goodness! Taco bell is my weak spot. I can eat there every day if I let myself. I am really concerned about not being able to overcome the "head hunger" once I am banded. I wish there wasn't such a long waiting period between fills. Oh well mistakes are made once and a while. Good luck and congrats on fill #3!

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  7. I can't wait to hear if the fill helped. I hope so.

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